"Learning how to be kind to ourselves, learning how to respect ourselves, is important. The reason it's important is that, fundamentally, when we look into our own hearts and begin to discover what is confused and what is brilliant, what is bitter and what is sweet, it isn't just ourselves that we're discovering. We're discovering the universe." Pema Chodron
It's difficult to have compassion for oneself. I am an expert at being compassionate for my fellow being. I can place myself in anyone's predicament and hurt with the best of sorrows. I, however, am blinded upon reflecting on myself. Second guessing myself is my nature. When I hear other's interpetation of me, I integrate their language into my self-talk, and beat myself up more. Meditation on emptiness leads to feeling more empiness but I don't think it is the kind that Avalokiteśvara was referencing.
Alas. tonight a glass of Chianti (5oz only of course ;).
